“Your hair will drop out if we use this kind of chemo, but it will grow back” my consultant said, not realising the emotional impact his statement had on me. I shrunk inside and touched my head protectively as the sentence rang in my ears. Despite being told I had a life-threatening illness, the hair … More “It will grow back” and other thoughts on hair loss
I tell all my colleagues that I’ll be back soonAs I slip from the office one spring afternoonTo a wonky blue chair in a brightly lit roomWhere I’m hit by a barrage of words spelling doom The shock takes my breath in the brutal surpriseI taste salt from the tears as they stream from my … More What does cancer feel like?
I don’t have time tofilter these thoughts, so here theyare unedited. We all said it wasbest not to Google. So ofcourse we all Googled. I felt nostalgicscrolling through wifi networksI’d connected to. And then I realised that googling my symptoms wasa form of self-harm. Impossible things have been said this week, things like‘prepare for cancer’. Drips of … More Haiku-ing through the early days…
The year that I turned twenty-nineI shot off from the starting lineNew employment, sparkly ringsWainwrights ticked, amazing thingsMy ducks were lined up in a rowAll set to fall like dominoesI didn’t see it coming. A little tiredness here and thereBut not enough to warrant careTurning 30 is so closeThe birthday that we fear the mostThis … More I didn’t see it coming
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