Belonging beyond worlds
Published by Synkroniciti Magazine in Volume 6, Number 3, Katherine McDaniel, editor (September 2024)
Published by Synkroniciti Magazine in Volume 6, Number 3, Katherine McDaniel, editor (September 2024)
It’s been 18 months since a scan confirmed my remission status post-chemo, a year since I realised remission didn’t mean diving back into my old life as if nothing happened, and about 3 months since I started to feel significantly better and more like myself. Only once that happened did I realise how bad I’d … More On Health & Healing
As I sit in the woods, a strong smell fills the air,Pungent wild garlic; eyes close, I am there.On this bench, two years prior, where a call had me picked,Like a rose in her prime, to be told she was sick.A tumour, they’d told me, with no time for thinking,Just garlic’s strong stench; like my … More Wild Garlic
Recently, someone asked me about my choice to do chemotherapy, knowing all the brutal side effects that go along with it. I didn’t know how to respond – my overwhelming feeling was that it wasn’t a choice. Not one made after hours of careful contemplation and research and weighing up the options anyway. My diagnosis … More Choices?
September is Blood Cancer Awareness month. So, just in the nick of time, here are a selection of facts about Lymphoma, a condition I’ve become all too familiar with over the past couple of years… What is Lymphoma?Lymphoma is a cancer of the lymphatic system. The lymphatic system is part of the immune system, forming … More What is Lymphoma?
Apart from having cancer in the first place, the cancer experience felt like my worst nightmare. In fact, it was my worst nightmare. Shortly after my diagnosis, I quickly realised that cancer is LOUD. It felt like the cruellest diagnosis for a highly sensitive, overthinking, introvert like me. As a society, we’ve collectively decided that cancer is … More Cancer for introverts
If you’re aged between, say, 16 and 30, and you’re engaged in small talk at a social event, here’s what happens: questions. A lot of questions. Questions like: What GCSEs are you taking?What A-Levels are you taking?What extra-curriculars are you doing?Have you started to learn to drive?Who are you taking to prom?What do you want … More On living in the moment when nobody else is
What does a cancer diagnosis feel like? One of my favourite Michael Bublé covers is “That’s life”, originally by Frank Sinatra. One of the lyrics is “…you’re riding high in April, shot down in May” – a line I’d never given much thought to until 2022 happened. Here’s me riding high in April… …and shot … More Riding high in April, shot down in May
“After this cycle I’m taking the PET-CT results to the MDT to discuss ABVD vs BEACOPP efficacy chance on EFS. We also need more filgrastim to help prevent neutropenia and an X-ray and ultrasound to check PICC line positioning.” When I entered the cancer world, a few months prior to my consultant uttering these words, … More An A-Z of Chemo for Lymphoma
As I sat waiting in the oncology ward today, a man sat in front of me wearing a hat that said “THIS IS YOUR EVEREST.” Interesting, I thought. I suppose cancer treatment is the toughest endurance test many of us will face. It does seem right to compare it to summiting Everest, the highest mountain … More This Is Your Everest